Entry made March 1, 2007 : Stairs

Stairs, I hate them. I don't hate them because I'm fat and have to walk up them. I'm not that fat. No. I hate them because they scare the shit out of me at night. There's something about the darkness at the bottom of the stairs that I almost can't stand.

Ever since I was a kid I've had a near phobia of stairs where I can't clearly see what's waiting at the bottom. Usually nobody sees this though because it only really pops up in the middle of the night when every other normal person sleeps.

This is the issue I have. I can't go down a set of stairs if there isn't at least a little light spilling onto the landing. I also get a slight panic attack when I go up a set of stairs that don't have much light at the bottom. I always get the feeling that something is going to jump out of the darkness and chase after me as a I run up the stairs. Or if I'm going down the stairs I feel like something is going to jump out at me when i get to the bottom. I've even been known to stand 3-4 steps up and reach down and around a corner to feel out a lightswitch.

As far as I know, this fear started after watching the movie, "Amityville II: The Possession." There is just something about darkness at the bottom of stairs that I can't stand. There's something that lurks there beyond sight that stares me down as I run away. The feeling I always get is the same as the one I get when i feel like someone's watching me.

That's all I really have to say about it. I'm a wus. Sorry there isn't some broader generilizing point in here. Have a nice day. Don't get eaten.